The question to ask is not "why"... but "how do we overcome?"

My day has been shaken by such grief that I can't even find the words to say. What is more painful is that my grief is but a minute fraction of the grief that someone else is feeling today. I think back to the moment I woke up...when things seemed so normal, and I would give anything to hold on to that feeling of normalcy. because now...just a few hours later...the sky is filled with dark clouds and it seems as if even nature is in mourning.

A few hours ago, I was pouting about being bored until I got a call that made my worries and problems seem so trivial. I was told that my friend's husband died today when he drown at a church picnic....trying to save a child who had swam out too far. Each word of this tragic news brought about more shock and more pain than the word before. I sat stunned for half an hour...in complete and utter disbelief. I just saw him last Saturday...he was preaching that night. He stood on stage with such conviction...as he preached a message..."Fear Not." His words moved me that night...I thought about him and his wife afterwards...and was happy that God anointed them with such a ministry. How could that same person be gone just a short week later...at the primetime in his life? He could have done so much more...

I think more than I mourn for him...i mourn for those he left behind. I know he is right where he wants to be...at the right hand of the Lord who he served so faithfully. How can I not be happy for him in that sense? But, my heart is filled with so much sadness when I think of his beautiful, young wife...who has to find a way to live on with out him. I can't imagine her feelings at this moment...I continuously pray for her...because only God can carry her through this time. In October, they would have been married two years...they had such a short time together, but I know it was filled with a lot of love.

Sometimes, I want to drop to my knees and scream out WHY...so loudly that my walls shake. But, what good would that do? I will never fully understand the ways of God. All I know is that He has a plan for us, his children...they are for good and not evil..to give us future and a hope. So asking why is the wrong question...the real question here is...how do we overcome?