Depressing thoughts...

My mind is reeling with depressing thoughts this morning. On my drive to work, the radio djs weren't their usual peppy, nonsensical selves. Instead they were serious and sullen as they discussed the Vtech slayings. As much as they tried to focus on the victims instead of the killer, the conversation kept drifting to the question that has been resounding in everyone's minds these days....WHY? And when you try to comprehend the "why"...you are forced to give attention to the one person who doesn't deserve it. Another topic of their conversation, was the Murrah Federal building bombing that took place 12 years ago today in Oklahoma City.

It's hard to believe that 12 years have gone by...that the individuals who died in that building are somehow frozen in the memory of those who once loved them...where they are unable to grow or change while the world they once lived in moves forward with out them.

And that's just how it is...when someone close to you dies...you feel as if something has been stolen from you. But it's worse than that...because it makes you feel like you can't continue to breathe...like you can't move forward and go on...But, you do. It takes a lot of effort to do something simple...like live. You walk around with this vacant hole in your heart. Eventually the hole heals...but you're heart isn't the same. It will never be the same. It's patched up...it functions...but in a single, solitary moment your life has been changed...whether you were ready for it or not.

Good Lord, expressing my depressing thoughts has probably put a damper on each of your days. So, I'll end with a joke to lift the spirits that I have crushed. =/

Tom had this problem of getting up late in the morning and was always late for work. His boss was mad at him and threatened to fire him if he didn't do something about it. So Tom went to his doctor who gave him a pill and told him to take it before he went to bed. Tom slept well and in fact beat, the alarm in the morning. He had a leisurely breakfast and drove cheerfully to work. "Boss", he said, "The pill actually worked!""That's all fine" said the boss, "But where were you yesterday?"

Ok, so if that didn't cheer you up and make you smile...here's something that will...TOMORROW'S Friday!